Is this what u want??
Sunday, September 27, 2009
hey
haven been home for 2 days
been here at the funeral
for 48 hrs
hasnt been sleeping too
this is all i can do now for him
being by his side til he is really gone
went home just now
packed some stuff
web-camed with jasmine:}
nothing much to say
really afraid of ppl tat are angry with me now:(
pls forgive me pls
real worn out now
but for him i have to be strong
because being strong is the only choice i have now
To ppl out there tat are concern about me:
Thanks:)
dun worry about me
I am strong, i will be
the only thing i need now is to forgive myself
but i need time
cause the mistask that i had committed cant be forgiven easily
To Grandpa:
I know u wont be able to look at this anymore
but i believe that u will be watching over me
All i want to say to u is
Sry for everything i have done:(
thanks for giving me a wonderful life
but grandpa i know u luv me
i luv u too
i know u want me to be happy
but for now i'm sry
i cant accept it yet
i haven say sry face to face to u:(
what i have done i dun beg u to forgive me
but atleast listen to me saying it
but now its too late ...:(
i dun cherish u in the past
grandpa what u said in the video
believe me i can do it
but why :(
why did u left me
why didnt u tell me u were the one
the one also being there or me
u left this world thinking that i hate u
NO!! i dun :(
i really dun
its all my fault ...
grandpa R.I.P
I LOVE U .......
To the person tat is angry with me now:
I dunno if u are seein this
but i hope u are
i'm really really sry of what i have done
it was foolish of me:(
pls believe me believe that i totally regret sending u that text
i really am
pls dun be angry
i dun want to regret this again
pls once is enough
u are important to me
u are
i cant lose u
pls.........